This week hasn't been a great one. I had my first really bad… - Incest Survivors' Support
Apr. 4th, 2007
This week hasn't been a great one. I had my first really bad flashback in about five years on Sunday evening.
I'm not even really sure why. I just kept getting more and more uncomfortable trying to have sex with my boyfriend and feeling more and more disgusted by absolutely nothing specific but rather everything at once until I just told him I had to stop. It's funny, my regular memory flashbacks don't bother me as much anymore, I've sort of learned to ignore them when they try to pop up, but such a strange emotional physical flashback is relatively new for me. Or so old that I forgot what it was like to have.
I've never had one before with Eric, not in all our four years. I think he's sort of avoiding me sexually for the moment because of it, I don't blame him.