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My introduction - Incest Survivors' Support
Apr. 21st, 2007
04:52 pm -
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June 12th, 2007 07:14 pm (UTC)
By the way I have a better than you'd expect relationship with my abuser brother, he is the most loyal family member I have, I may be his most loyal family member for him too. I have to maintain the relationship in order to ensure he is never left with young children alone. It's my life's work. I don't think he is completely better by no means. he feels bad. He's apologized. He's given me money and shelter when I needed it. I think of it as being a bit greedy but in a way allowing him to get even with me.
Does that make sense?
Yes. It's almost the exact relationship I have with my abuser only she's hardly loyal, but I "use" her when I want to get the things I want. I suppose in a way I figure she owes me for the all the pain she's caused, but on the other hand I hate the fact that I'm still sort of dependent on her.
I thought it was weird that I still had any sort of relationship with her at all considering what had happened. It's sort of nice to know I'm not alone. -hugs- Hope that's not to forward from someone who you've never spoken to before. :)
June 12th, 2007 08:28 pm (UTC)
Not too forward at all..
Glad to meet you... I'm always looking for fellow travelers so I can learn from them and hopefully them from me. I didn't read the rules of this place before I posted that. I was trying to be honest not triggering I hope I can be forgiven.
It's an outrageous post but it was an outrageous childhood. I've met people who are sort of Okay with the abuse that happenned to them. And while I know my abuser is not who he was I still have anger over it. After you figure out how it has affected you then it is you who has to figure out how to recover.. No one can really help it's on you and it's so unfair as you didn't start it. It's one of the things to feel rage about most definately.